Communication would have helped

Today was a pretty good day for the most part. There was some attitude from my nephew, but that’s becoming the norm on his new medicine (I pray they figure the meds out very soon), and then tonight hit…hmm, or was it thrown at the fan. Seriously I’m still sitting here trying to figure out WTF the real problem is because I know it’s not blankets. Is this how men feel in those stereotypical scenarios where their girl starts an argument over something trivial and won’t bring up the real issue?? If so I my heart goes out to anyone dealing with this.

No, I’m not going into the incident here, trust me it’s even more frustrating to retell and analyze.

I’m not a passive-aggressive person, I don’t sugar coat things for adults that need to hear the raw, and I don’t make up shit to cover what I actually said or did, I own it and will call you on your shit when you try to front. If something is wrong or needs attention then talk to that person! 

Maybe that’s part of my problem, I expect too much. Shit, I love my sister, but I can only bite my tongue so long and tonight was a night I had to let it loose, just enough. No I won’t be apologizing, I did nothing wrong and I know she won’t be apologizing either so…I guess we just keep moving forward, hopefully from different houses though. Just a few more days and I can leave for the month…

Want to know a secret? I’m actually jealous of sisters who are close and get along.

Want to know another secret?  I was kind of relieved I only have one kid because close sibling relations don’t seem to run in our family.

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Resolving problems, I’m better than this

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I’m feeling so much better today after last night’s vent, not that we’ve resolved or even discussed anything, but I took more steps today towards getting my own place and resolving this living situation. Finally, I got my housing voucher and now I’m waiting to hear back as I requested to port out so we are close to my son’s school. I can’t wait to be able to apartment hunt!! I’ve also decided to take my son and visit my mom next month, staying here long term just isn’t healthy so I won’t be back until housing needs me here to sign paperwork. Well, in the spirit of having to do what I have to do in order to keep from flashing, my son is off to stay the next 2 nights at his friends house and hit a water park. 🙂 Fun times. I’m off to a concert Saturday and hopefully hanging with friends, I need a break and some pampering. Hmm maybe Sunday or monday I’ll take my son to a movie for some family time, I think we both need it.

I can’t let either of us succumb to other people’s attitudes and laziness, we are not them and need to rise above so we can’t be dragged down, and believe it’s getting us down. Oh man, that reminds me…I need to find a church.

Well, as you can tell I’m in a hurry. More later.

Passive aggressive b.s. vent

Grrr…what is wrong with people?!?! Just because I am inhabiting your house doesn’t mean you get to sneak around passively grounding my son from things!! Seriously, I’m right fucking here and nothing had happened to cut off his internet access (which he uses to stream music to sleep at night), why do you keep doing shit like this!! And seriously stop tying to act like you did it by mistake when you just told us you shut it off when we first asked! I’m so tired of passive aggressive bs and half truths, you’re his fucking aunt, not his mom, and you have no clue how to raise kids or teens just look at your kids.

I SO need my own fucking house!!!