Has it really been a year since I started this blog? It seems like I haven’t gotten very far, but I’m sure there are some small things if I think about it. There are just so many emotions to dig through and far more distractions.
Distractions, always so welcome.
I did start deciding last year and made a lot of progress…then distraction. My sister and her family came to stay with us for about 6 months. Hmm, maybe that was more like a setback in ways and trigger to other issues I need to work on. It’s real hard to progress in cleaning and decluttering when there are 6 people living on top of each other in a not-so-big 2 bedroom with no storage space.
Of course, once my family moved out relief set in. After rearranging the common areas loneliness set in. It’s so quiet when it’s just 2 people and my son’s a teen so it’s not like he’s around much, and it sucks cooking for just 2. I’ve found myself retreating to books the past month or so, I’ve become neglectful of some of my responsibilities. Not good.
One good thing about books is that they make you think and I have truly been doing a lot of that lately. There are some new developments that are forcing me to confront the past and think about what I really want. It is very difficult, I already struggle to shut my brain down to sleep. How can I truly envision my future if I keep ignoring my past? How can I overcome what’s holding me back if I am not host with myself?
It is time. I must do this. I’m so glad I rediscovered my screen name, I can’t keep this all in my head.
Some days I want to throw all electronic devices out, other days I wish we still used pagers and internet want at our finger tips 24/7. It doesn’t matter what I’m doing I will find myself checking my phone and not even knowing why. Habits don’t require thought, just action. I know I’m not the only one, I see people do it all the time, at work, driving, on the street, we are all obsessed.
I wish I could say the kids have it worse, but really, the adults are just as bad, the big difference is most adults get their work done too. Ok well our paid work. Today I was suppose to clean, but I found myself researching numerous things for an upcoming doctor appt and such that could have waited. Like I said before, there’s always an excuse. I really do need to make a list tomorrow and reward myself as I accomplish each goal. The good news is I am prepared for the appointments and the upcoming meeting with the school, the downside is I have pulled things out as I clean and purge and they are sitting here waiting for me to pull out together and move them to their new room.
Yup, tomorrow is it , I can’t look at this stuff out of place much longer. I need that rush of accomplishment, maybe I will reward myself by shopping for paint for the living room. Crap, no, I’m already distracting myself.
Why is it so easy to put off cleaning the house? When my son was young I cleaned daily and the carpet was cleaned monthly, but now that he’s a teen I find myself frustrated and procrastinating. Yes I do the basics daily…dishes, counters, laundry, bathroom, vacuum…but the rest gets neglected or shoved away so the house appears clean. My son helps some but things seem to get messed up faster than we can clean. Hmm I think that is what has made me give up, constant cleaning after people.
Ive decided it’s time to change this. I’ve heard of the 15 min cleaning challenge and Declutter 365, maybe it’s time I try these out. I’ve lived here so long that it is time to purge, maybe then even if we don’t thoroughly clean daily it will still look nicer and motivate us. This will be a huge task and may take a lot to get my son on board, but I think we can do it, especially in small increments daily.
I do love the adrenalin rush I get when getting rid of stuff, I hope my son does too because his room is in need of this!
Good Lord, where do I start?