Happy Mother’s Day

Happy Mother’s Day everyone! 
We celebrated our mother-son bond last night with delicious restaurant Mexican food and a movie, Fate of the Furious. Such a wonderful time. My son bough me a Cinnamon Roll scented candle and I bought myself a picture for the living room and a smaller round folding tale for the patio so we can play cards on it this summer. It feels so good to have money again, a place to be where I’m helping others, and a son that I wouldn’t trade for anything. I also spoke with my mom and will celebrate her next month with a visit, God willing.
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Reflection: My first week cashiering

When I applied as a cashier I did so because I need a job where I stay busy, it’s something I know I can do, it’s an easier job to get, and I need the money. When the retailer I accepted the job with made me an offer I was ecstatic, I absolutely loved working for them ages ago and the pay is better than other retailers. Looking back so many other good things have happened since accepting the job, none of which I expected. 

One of the most exciting side effects of my first week cashiering is I’ve lost weight!!! I don’t know how much, but I can see a difference. I didn’t realize how sedimentary my life had gotten, but between walking to the bus and standing on my feet hour after hour, reaching left and right, bending, squatting, and lifting I and submitting up! The first few days of work I came home extremely sore from using muscles I wasn’t used to using for long, apparently during my exhaustion my muscles kept burning fat. Yay muscles!

The down side to cashiering is that my Achilles tendinitis is killing me each night. I’m trying to limit my ibuprofen intake to 2 every other night and hot baths each morning and so far it’s going ok. Had I worked more than 4 hours both Monday and Tuesday I don’t think I could have made it though, my legs needed a break. Good news though, I was able to walk to the store today without any issues or pain 🙂

Years ago I worked for this retailer a few months while pregnant. I was a cashier, sales associate, and fitting room attendant (not able to do much at the end of my pregnancy), all of which I enjoyed. Well, times change and I’m happy being a cashier. I know I can cross train into other positions and possible pull in more hours that way, but I’m good for now, the sales floor just doesn’t sound appealing right now. Aside from being slower, more boring in ways, sales rep would require me walking, squatting, stretching, and lifting to put things away or get them down and with my Achilles already suffering just standing I don’t want to push it any further. I know, first payday I will be investing in shoe inserts, praying they help a ton. 

Another surprise I discovered is how natural I am at selling things (upselling, promoting). Credit cards, discount programs, promotional items…I have a knack for mentioning it then casually overcoming objections without offending or irritating people. I do tend to use humor at times to cushion things, but all in all, where they sign on or not I send them home thinking about it. Lol one of my favorite lines is “why wouldn’t you want to save?” or “may I ask why not?” Of course I don’t use these on everyone, timing and reading the situation ate a must, but these are effective on the right people. I do try to watch what I say, I’m a former 3rd party collector and sometimes I feel old tactics creep up (examples above are bordering this line) which is why I prefer humor. I’m not proud of the things I’ve said as a collector even though it got results, it’s the reason I left that job. 

So after a week I am happy. Do I think I will go full time or do this for life? No, but I don’t see me leaving even if I chose to go back into the medical field. Weekends are my favorite, Thursday-Sunday, so those are always an option if I find another career. 

Milestone: 1 week complete!!

Woohoo! I successfully completed my first week at work and did great!! Not only that but I survived my first weekend and the super slow Monday and Tuesday following. God Monday and Tuesday’s dragged, ok well, Monday for sure. Today fluctuated, but honestly I had reached my work limit and did not try as hard as normal. Regardless, I still managed to smile and do my job (aside from pushing our promotional items much), but my eyes kept drifting to the clock. I’m off the next couple of days and couldn’t be more grateful.

Special moments

Special moments, I don’t get many of these with my son now that he’s going on 16, so when I do they stand out and fill my heart. Tonight I came home from work extremely sore due to my Achilles tendinitis, my son had done everything I had asked of him. From the dishes to mopping I had very little left to do and most of that could wait. I started cooking dinner, our homemade and far better version of Cheeseburger Mac, when my son appears and takes over browning and seasoning the beef. He had me assist some but for the most part it was him cooking dinner. It felt heavenly to be able to sit and relax a bit and it’s a relief seeing him work so hard to show support of me going back to work, a move that benefits him greatly. 🙂 Since I started back working my son has truly transformed into a supportive young man and as I sit here I’m tearing up from the joy and pure love I feel. I love him so much. Thank you Lord.

Day made

Busy, just the way I like work to be; what a great Saturday. Today was different, it tries to start off badly but I didn’t let it. I had to jog to the bus stop so I was there early just in case, but the bus never showed up. I waited 15 min after due then walked to the transit center and managed to catch another bus which got me to work with 5 mins to spare. Whew. 

Hair wind blown and matted down from the humidity and my hood l, I want feeling the prettiest, thank God I applied mascara on the bus. A young girl made my day today, she kept looking at my eyes and told me I’m beautiful. For a split second I caught myself questioning her sincerity, but let it go as she seemed really inherited by my eyes. Tis made me smile 🙂 

But seriously, what is wrong with me that the first thing that came to mind is “it’s probably make someone feel good month at her school.” Am I really that damaged?  I know I’m cute, but I’m somewhat self conscious of my face due to my weight. There was an instance about 10 years ago now, when I was still skinny-ish, effete I was waiting by the restroom my son was in and some older teen boys walked by smiling in my face and acting like they were attracted, talking like they wanted to know me then when they walked off said psych and called me a dog and stayed barking. The crazy part is it was simply because my face had broken out a bit and I didn’t try to cover it 😦 no other reason, I was looking good otherwise. And yet, I have never forgotten that moment. Sometimes people just suck and no matter how confident you are in yourself words can still make you question your confidence. 

Long story short though, it was a great day. I met some fabulous people each day and I hope I make them smile like they make me smile. 

I am now officially a cashier!! Today was my first day on registers and I rocked it! Everybody seemed pleased with me and I have some amazing coworkers. I think this will work out well, just need to focus on getting paid and eventually how to spend the $.

God, I’m exhausted. My feet are pretty much numb right now, grateful to be resting and I’m laid out on the couch watching Criminal Minds. I didn’t get much sleep and my body had some adjusting to do to standing all day. My son’s knocked out already so maybe I should set this aside and fully relax. 

Good night all.

Sunday surprise!!

Today was amazing! I woke up to a missed call from a box store that I applied to Friday. Surprisingly they wanted to interview me today, Sunday. So after 2 interviews and some paperwork I am now employed at said box store!! I can’t believe it, amazing Sunday!!

After 5 years as a stay home mom and homeschool teacher, I felt the time was right to return to work. My son is almost 16, pretty independent and not home much, so why not? I tried looking for work briefly last year before finding out I needed to move, with no luck, but after a week of submitting applications I am finally employed!! 

This is a big step, one that I’ve thought out a bit. I know that I will eventually need 2 jobs, Ke won’t be my dependent for much longer (3 more years :/ where’d time go?). So instead of jumping into my previous job title, further utilizing my certification, I decided it’s better to start with my soon to be 2nd job so I can work up the pay scale a bit. Fingers crossed this all goes well. I’ve worked at this job when I was much younger so I know I can do it, and the company is amazing toward their employees so I know I can move up and will enjoy it.

What’s been Hiding in plain sight?

There’s actually something about not having a car to drive on a regular basis that is freeing. I mean, yeah, it’s “good for our bodies” and “the environment” but there’s so much more to it. When you walk or ride buses you’re out there with other people. You see things that drivers tend to miss and share moments with people you never met. 

Today I hopped the bus, something I don’t typically enjoy on a Sunday (Sunday scheduled have you waiting am hour at times), but I had to take care of some things. So I get to the spot, handle business, and see I have 15 min to kill before that same bus leaves. I see this little fish and chips place chillin in the middle of basically nowhere, only restraunt there. Best fast food I’ve had in a long time, even the driver was droolin (yeah it’s cuties fav layover spot apparently). Crazy how this joints there, hiding but thriving all this time but I never noticed it cuz my car runs a different route. 

It’s like that though, it’s easy to hide and isolate yourself when you have your own house and car…while it’s nice getting from A-B-C quickly and without planning ahead it makes you wonder, what am I missing? 

Guess who finally got out!!

I finally did it, this week I focused on me! Ok more accurately I treated myself for a change and no it wasn’t a shopping trip. Last weekend I met up with a friend from middle and high school to see her daughter’s rock band perform. It’s one of those rock camps, but damn some of those kids have major talent and her daughter is one of them!

My friend and I had a drink before the show, but didn’t get to visit much which is what happens every year. To my surprise she texted me to plan a day to go out for drinks at this bar down the street with live music. Our plans for Friday feel through, but Saturday we met up. It was a fucking blast! Seriously the drinks were strong and the band was hot how much better can it get? Lol ok add in the free drink that one of the sound guys bought us (which was all rum with a small splash of coke) and that was the perfect end to our reunion.

The next day I took my son out to eat and to the movies. It’s been ages since I’ve done this and long overdue. We saw Suicide Squad and Lights out (movie hopping is the only way to justify the cost isn’t it?).  It felt so good to spend time just the 2 of us, I need to make sure we do so more often.

I have been neglecting a big part of myself for too long. I ask so happy I’m finally taking action and growing my friends and getting the heck out the house doing things I enjoy. I know the funds aren’t there to go all out, but little things here and there make a big difference. I feel so light and renewed.