Happy Mother’s Day everyone!
We celebrated our mother-son bond last night with delicious restaurant Mexican food and a movie, Fate of the Furious. Such a wonderful time. My son bough me a Cinnamon Roll scented candle and I bought myself a picture for the living room and a smaller round folding tale for the patio so we can play cards on it this summer. It feels so good to have money again, a place to be where I’m helping others, and a son that I wouldn’t trade for anything. I also spoke with my mom and will celebrate her next month with a visit, God willing.
Special moments, I don’t get many of these with my son now that he’s going on 16, so when I do they stand out and fill my heart. Tonight I came home from work extremely sore due to my Achilles tendinitis, my son had done everything I had asked of him. From the dishes to mopping I had very little left to do and most of that could wait. I started cooking dinner, our homemade and far better version of Cheeseburger Mac, when my son appears and takes over browning and seasoning the beef. He had me assist some but for the most part it was him cooking dinner. It felt heavenly to be able to sit and relax a bit and it’s a relief seeing him work so hard to show support of me going back to work, a move that benefits him greatly. 🙂 Since I started back working my son has truly transformed into a supportive young man and as I sit here I’m tearing up from the joy and pure love I feel. I love him so much. Thank you Lord.
I finally did it, this week I focused on me! Ok more accurately I treated myself for a change and no it wasn’t a shopping trip. Last weekend I met up with a friend from middle and high school to see her daughter’s rock band perform. It’s one of those rock camps, but damn some of those kids have major talent and her daughter is one of them!
My friend and I had a drink before the show, but didn’t get to visit much which is what happens every year. To my surprise she texted me to plan a day to go out for drinks at this bar down the street with live music. Our plans for Friday feel through, but Saturday we met up. It was a fucking blast! Seriously the drinks were strong and the band was hot how much better can it get? Lol ok add in the free drink that one of the sound guys bought us (which was all rum with a small splash of coke) and that was the perfect end to our reunion.
The next day I took my son out to eat and to the movies. It’s been ages since I’ve done this and long overdue. We saw Suicide Squad and Lights out (movie hopping is the only way to justify the cost isn’t it?). It felt so good to spend time just the 2 of us, I need to make sure we do so more often.
I have been neglecting a big part of myself for too long. I ask so happy I’m finally taking action and growing my friends and getting the heck out the house doing things I enjoy. I know the funds aren’t there to go all out, but little things here and there make a big difference. I feel so light and renewed.
Today was a pretty good day for the most part. There was some attitude from my nephew, but that’s becoming the norm on his new medicine (I pray they figure the meds out very soon), and then tonight hit…hmm, or was it thrown at the fan. Seriously I’m still sitting here trying to figure out WTF the real problem is because I know it’s not blankets. Is this how men feel in those stereotypical scenarios where their girl starts an argument over something trivial and won’t bring up the real issue?? If so I my heart goes out to anyone dealing with this.
No, I’m not going into the incident here, trust me it’s even more frustrating to retell and analyze.
I’m not a passive-aggressive person, I don’t sugar coat things for adults that need to hear the raw, and I don’t make up shit to cover what I actually said or did, I own it and will call you on your shit when you try to front. If something is wrong or needs attention then talk to that person!
Maybe that’s part of my problem, I expect too much. Shit, I love my sister, but I can only bite my tongue so long and tonight was a night I had to let it loose, just enough. No I won’t be apologizing, I did nothing wrong and I know she won’t be apologizing either so…I guess we just keep moving forward, hopefully from different houses though. Just a few more days and I can leave for the month…
Want to know a secret? I’m actually jealous of sisters who are close and get along.
Want to know another secret? I was kind of relieved I only have one kid because close sibling relations don’t seem to run in our family.
So one question left to be answered since my blog sabbatical is how did my move go.
To be honest it was far more stressful and disorganized than I intended, even with my pre planning. Although it felt like I had purged tons I still ended up with over 10 boxes of random sort items and we were still packing as the moving van drove off! Yeah it sounds simple enough, just donate the boxes without looking, but we literally got to the point where we were just throwing everything into them even some things that actually get used regularly.
Thankfully I moved as much as I had packed and the big items early enough to leave me a couple weeks to finish packing and clean. The unfortunate party was after the moving truck left my son refused to even see the house again, this move has been hard on him. So it was me for a week pretty much doing it all myself. My sister came with me occasionally, particularly helping a lot towards the end. Although she wasn’t much help when it came to packing, she worked her ass of scrubbing walls and blinds and filling in holes.
All I can say is thank God for my friends and family who showed up and a $250 non refundable cleaning fee otherwise I would never have gotten out and gotten my deposit back! So all my stuff is in storage, my life in boxes, and I wait until I’m approved to find my next rental.
I hope I won’t have to move again for 4 years at least. Whoo, we did it!!
I’m feeling so much better today after last night’s vent, not that we’ve resolved or even discussed anything, but I took more steps today towards getting my own place and resolving this living situation. Finally, I got my housing voucher and now I’m waiting to hear back as I requested to port out so we are close to my son’s school. I can’t wait to be able to apartment hunt!! I’ve also decided to take my son and visit my mom next month, staying here long term just isn’t healthy so I won’t be back until housing needs me here to sign paperwork. Well, in the spirit of having to do what I have to do in order to keep from flashing, my son is off to stay the next 2 nights at his friends house and hit a water park. 🙂 Fun times. I’m off to a concert Saturday and hopefully hanging with friends, I need a break and some pampering. Hmm maybe Sunday or monday I’ll take my son to a movie for some family time, I think we both need it.
I can’t let either of us succumb to other people’s attitudes and laziness, we are not them and need to rise above so we can’t be dragged down, and believe it’s getting us down. Oh man, that reminds me…I need to find a church.
Well, as you can tell I’m in a hurry. More later.
Grrr…what is wrong with people?!?! Just because I am inhabiting your house doesn’t mean you get to sneak around passively grounding my son from things!! Seriously, I’m right fucking here and nothing had happened to cut off his internet access (which he uses to stream music to sleep at night), why do you keep doing shit like this!! And seriously stop tying to act like you did it by mistake when you just told us you shut it off when we first asked! I’m so tired of passive aggressive bs and half truths, you’re his fucking aunt, not his mom, and you have no clue how to raise kids or teens just look at your kids.
I SO need my own fucking house!!!
What do you do when you are stuck staying with family and things get to be much?
So much has happened since I last posted, the biggest thing being I made it through the move!! Seriously that is the primary reason I haven’t posted in so long, that move was consuming. So as of July 1 I officially became a resident of my sister’s couch. I can’t say it’s horrible but it’s not entirely a comfortable situation. So here I sit in my new used mini van that was gifted to us by a couple amazing and generous guys that I can’t thank enough regrouping and resetting my mind before I go back inside.
I have no money and my friends are busy tonight…maybe I should go read in a park. Hmm that doesn’t sound half bad.
I can’t believe how great today ended up being! Since losing the car mid month and being cooped up in the house due to low funds I declared today my day out. Boy did I need it! I hoped a bus with my sister and little niece and hit the mall. Seriously, it was sunny, warm, and I just got paid so hell yeah mall it was.
We walked our asses off doubling back and forth as each of us took turns selecting our next destination (I guess I won’t feel so bad for not working out like I intended to). It’s amazing how fun it is to just clown with friends/family outside of home, my niece even made trying on sunglasses into a fun event…she’s adorable.
So my one destination and motivation to hit that particular mall was to hit the body piercing spot and pick up a new labret stud with a longer stem, my hoop was too big, heavy, and driving me crazy and the original labret stud was still too short to allow the inside of my lip to heal right. Well I got one and it feels great!! I’ll post a pic tomorrow, can’t see it in the dark. 🙂
Anyways, I’m exhausted and have more running to do tomorrow…a new day, new missions. Good night all.
Happy lazy Sunday everyone. I think this meme says it all for me, I’m still laying here looking at the ceiling contemplating the day. My awesome son surprised me with a delicious breakfast this morning, such a sweet guy at times.
Hmmm, what to do today? I need to run to the store, maybe clean until The Walking Dead comes on…of course that has me laying here contemplating escaping the house. Lol I’m bad, I know, anything to distract myself.
Well, whatever happens today I hope you ask have a great day and enjoy some time with loved ones.