It’s easy to complain, heck it’s even easy to survive when that’s who you are and what you do, but it is hard as hell to stop thinking and plotting until the situations resolved or passes.
It’s an internal battle right now, 1:30 AM, trying to resolve my situation without crossing into the grey or shadows. God is it hard, but my son needs me to do this, no crossing over, and that is all that matters.
Life goes on. What matters is how we go on and that we get through it together. No car, no house…it’s only temporary; my example is permanent.
I’m a night owl. Yes I can get up and do stuff during the day, but I do my best work at night. I’m finding that this goes double when it comes to cleaning house.
When my son was little I would do a thorough cleaning on one of my days off, usually from 11-3 AM. He would always get up the next morning and his eyes would light up in surprise and admiration at what I accomplished while he slept. I really miss seeing this look on his face, but he’s old enough to be a part of the cleaning process. Unfortunately I get way more accomplished while he sleeps. Maybe I should keep him involved in the daily routine but do the thorough myself. I guess I should think about this more.
I dunno, as motivated as I am at night to clean I have a houseguest for the school year who sleeps on the couch. I guess I need to just suck it up and find it in me to get this done during the day. 😦 So many excuse, I can’t pick just one.
I finally started my declutter mission. It is a task to fit 15+ mins into my current cleaning routine, but I’m doing it. I have 2 paper bags full of items to donate and someone just came to pick up my son’s old basketball hoop. It felt so good to see things go.
Unfortunately for me decluttering creates an even bigger mess. Pulling things out and going through them often leaves some items displaced. 😦 This could get messy, I hope the boys don’t want a slumber party anytime soon. Sure eventually things will find a place or go, but if I try to find a place now I will never fully go through things or have to sort that item again when I get to that room. I could be doing this wrong, but I’m easily distracted do I don’t want to deviate.