Quick update, it’s good

It’s been a while since I’ve posted, the job is going great! I’m about 3 months in and am already working as cashier and now the customer service desk (returns, returns, returns). I am also a go to when it comes to those shady customers trying to scam us for gift cards, I love to make their transactions difficult 🙂

Things are going well and I’m ready enjoying having money to spend, maybe a little too much. I’ve splurged a bit each check. New patio table, pictures for the house, clothes, even a kitchen garbage can…it feels great. I’ve even managed to put money away for car repairs and vacation, but what makes me feel the best is sending money with my son when he’s out with friends. 

The only thing that bugs me is that my son is home so many nights alone. He’s been spending time at his aunts and friends and it makes me feel bad that he’s having to rely on them for homeless dinner and company. I need to figure out a better meal plan and adjust my availability after my probationary period is over. I know he’s ok but when you’ve had a depressed kiddo you can’t stop being concerned with their mental state. Ah I feel another post in the making.

All in all things are going well.

Milestone: 1 week complete!!

Woohoo! I successfully completed my first week at work and did great!! Not only that but I survived my first weekend and the super slow Monday and Tuesday following. God Monday and Tuesday’s dragged, ok well, Monday for sure. Today fluctuated, but honestly I had reached my work limit and did not try as hard as normal. Regardless, I still managed to smile and do my job (aside from pushing our promotional items much), but my eyes kept drifting to the clock. I’m off the next couple of days and couldn’t be more grateful.

Special moments

Special moments, I don’t get many of these with my son now that he’s going on 16, so when I do they stand out and fill my heart. Tonight I came home from work extremely sore due to my Achilles tendinitis, my son had done everything I had asked of him. From the dishes to mopping I had very little left to do and most of that could wait. I started cooking dinner, our homemade and far better version of Cheeseburger Mac, when my son appears and takes over browning and seasoning the beef. He had me assist some but for the most part it was him cooking dinner. It felt heavenly to be able to sit and relax a bit and it’s a relief seeing him work so hard to show support of me going back to work, a move that benefits him greatly. 🙂 Since I started back working my son has truly transformed into a supportive young man and as I sit here I’m tearing up from the joy and pure love I feel. I love him so much. Thank you Lord.

Day made

Busy, just the way I like work to be; what a great Saturday. Today was different, it tries to start off badly but I didn’t let it. I had to jog to the bus stop so I was there early just in case, but the bus never showed up. I waited 15 min after due then walked to the transit center and managed to catch another bus which got me to work with 5 mins to spare. Whew. 

Hair wind blown and matted down from the humidity and my hood l, I want feeling the prettiest, thank God I applied mascara on the bus. A young girl made my day today, she kept looking at my eyes and told me I’m beautiful. For a split second I caught myself questioning her sincerity, but let it go as she seemed really inherited by my eyes. Tis made me smile 🙂 

But seriously, what is wrong with me that the first thing that came to mind is “it’s probably make someone feel good month at her school.” Am I really that damaged?  I know I’m cute, but I’m somewhat self conscious of my face due to my weight. There was an instance about 10 years ago now, when I was still skinny-ish, effete I was waiting by the restroom my son was in and some older teen boys walked by smiling in my face and acting like they were attracted, talking like they wanted to know me then when they walked off said psych and called me a dog and stayed barking. The crazy part is it was simply because my face had broken out a bit and I didn’t try to cover it 😦 no other reason, I was looking good otherwise. And yet, I have never forgotten that moment. Sometimes people just suck and no matter how confident you are in yourself words can still make you question your confidence. 

Long story short though, it was a great day. I met some fabulous people each day and I hope I make them smile like they make me smile. 

I am now officially a cashier!! Today was my first day on registers and I rocked it! Everybody seemed pleased with me and I have some amazing coworkers. I think this will work out well, just need to focus on getting paid and eventually how to spend the $.

God, I’m exhausted. My feet are pretty much numb right now, grateful to be resting and I’m laid out on the couch watching Criminal Minds. I didn’t get much sleep and my body had some adjusting to do to standing all day. My son’s knocked out already so maybe I should set this aside and fully relax. 

Good night all.