One disorganized move

So one question left to be answered since my blog sabbatical is how did my move go.

To be honest it was far more stressful and disorganized than I intended, even with my pre planning. Although it felt like I had purged tons I still ended up with over 10 boxes of random sort items and we were still packing as the moving van drove off! Yeah it sounds simple enough, just donate the boxes without looking, but we literally got to the point where we were just throwing everything into them even some things that actually get used regularly.

Thankfully I moved as much as I had packed and the big items early enough to leave me a couple weeks to finish packing and clean. The unfortunate party was after the moving truck left my son refused to even see the house again, this move has been hard on him. So it was me for a week pretty much doing it all myself. My sister came with me occasionally, particularly helping a lot towards the end. Although she wasn’t much help when it came to packing, she worked her ass of scrubbing walls and blinds and filling in holes.

All I can say is thank God for my friends and family who showed up and a $250 non refundable cleaning fee otherwise I would never have gotten out and gotten my deposit back! So all my stuff is in storage, my life in boxes, and I wait until I’m approved to find my next rental.

I hope I won’t have to move again for 4 years at least. Whoo, we did it!!

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Progress amidst distractions

The day can wait, there’s a Back to the Future marathon on today and I’m on the last one.

Hey guys, I’ve not posted much in the last week or so, not much going on. I’ve gotten a couple of drafts started here exploring my feelings on some things and my past, but my head just isn’t in it. I’ve even picked up boxes and started packing some, yes progress is being made.

So there was some good news this week, I was put on the wait list for a few townhouse apartments and got a call about an opening in June for one of them. Unfortunately I couldn’t jump on it, but it was good to know that I may not be couch during long this summer. I know you’re probably wondering why I declined, but I had good reason. For one I receive housing assistance and in order to move to another county I have to pay off all my utility bills which skyrocket during the winter so I need to use my money for this and then focus on saving a deposit. Two, it takes time to transfer the assistance to another county and I have no idea how long that will take if I’m not moving until July 1…you know apartments won’t want to hold the place more than a few weeks. So that is why I declined, I actually have my priorities in order and need to stick to them.

With things starting to fall in place I decided some family time and retail therapy was in order. I know I should have saved the money, but my son needed new shoes again and I needed a break. I have to say it was well worth it!

Well back to my show. Hope your weekend beautiful and you have a moment of fun.

Lazy day accomplishments

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Yup, that’s me today. I have done absolutely nothing today except watched Ink Master, showered, and ate. I’m just run down today, tired, I’m not even sure why. I forced myself to leave the house yesterday, but today it’s just not happening.

Truly I have nothing on my mind today.

I think I need to set 2 goals to accomplish before bed…what to choose? Laundry? Vacuuming? Hmm those might not be a bad place to start. Let’s see if I feel like more as I check them off my list (not that laundry is ever done). For now my goal is to watch another episode of Ink Masters.

Spring sun and plans = progress

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There is something about the spring sunshine that invigorates me. Just seeing it outside of my window energizes me. I have made even more progress on the house today and have clear goals laid out to accomplish before The Walking Dead comes on tonight. I can do this! I will be packed to move (daily necessities aside) by the end of the month then I can focus on the move out cleaning and giving/selling what I don’t get rid of this month. God knows I have a ton of boxes soured in the closet that need sorting after I’ve packed, almost 15 years of memories and hidden clutter that need new homes. For now I focus on what I see daily that I absolutely know will be going with us and what absolutely won’t. If I don’t break it down in these focuses then I will not make progress, it’s to overwhelming. I know by the end of the month I will have a box or 2 of thing that I just couldn’t decide on keeping and hope to just donate that box. It’s amazing how much accumulated when you don’t move for almost 14 years.

Here’s to a plan and steps to accomplishing it. Cheers

Success, progress made!!

Success!! I managed to reach a couple of goals today 🙂 I made it to the grocery store, made 2 separate Buy Nothing pick ups and even got exercise!! Oh I even cleaned the bathroom and kitchen. Yay me!

Since I had done more riding in vehicles today than walking I chose to walk to my last Buy Nothing pick up which was just under a mile away. It was a very nice walk. The return home was a little challenging as I had 2 garbage bags full of boys size 18 jeans, luckily after a while your hands go somewhat numb. I do have to say waking with garbage bags down a main street in the dark is a somewhat humbling experience as the first assumption people seem to have is that you’re a “bag lady.”

Today was definitely another good day!

Side note: if you have not gotten into the Buy Nothing movement you should look into it. They are local Facebook groups across the U.S. with the goal of bringing neighbors together. It’s a giving group and sooo awesome!

Be you

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A-men!

Don’t be scared to be you…unless your a psychopathic murderer or worse, if so then just get help because you still are who you are so it’s ok to admit it so others can be who they are. Lol that’s so not where I intended to go with this.

Good day people. I’m up after only 5 hours of amazing sleep and am amazingly energized…I wonder if it’s still the adrenalin or thrill of the new piercing. I woke up with a swollen lip thanks to having to push the needle through twice, but it’s come down some and I don’t have plans but to clean and pack some.

Well I’m off to start my day, I mean afternoon. 🙂 What makes you different?

Haunted goodbyes

Is there a clinical term for overwhelmed and not motivated? I know I should be packing and purging, but I don’t want to leave the couch and fireplace to even get the laundry to fold. Ok, I made myself do that and other basics in household maintenance, but I had to MAKE myself which is not right.

Yeah there’s some depression and a lot of avoidance happening right now and most of it is surrounding the move. We’ve lived here almost all of my son’s life, about 13 years. We have so many memories here, both good and bad, it’s hard to say goodbye.

Typically I enjoy moving but what makes this different is that it is severely affecting my son. His friends, activities, and memories are here. He is upset, withdrawn, and showing it like guys do…”nothing’s wrong” then shutting himself away. Watching this affect him makes it hard on me. I busted my ass to ensure he had a stable home to grow up in, even remaining here when I wanted to run away from memories because I knew it was more important to give my son stability. Now I can’t even give him one lat summer let alone his high school years.

Maybe I’m feeling like a failure because I can’t afford the rent hike. Even so, I would refuse to pay $1650 for this small place. I guess I just don’t like to know I can’t swing something even if I chose not to pay in the end; it’s having the option to not stay due to the increase instead of having the decision made for me.

Then there’s having to go through things and purging. I still have things of my dad’s that I’ve stored away and things of his that are in use that need to be given away. I’m not thrilled about the memories that going through things will bring. Baby clothes saved for the 2nd child that I would never have. Baggage.

I have 2-3 months to get through this, I need to step up. I can do this. Maybe it’s a good thing we have to move, it’s time I let go. Make a list, table one room at a time before moving on.

Just 1 more night vegging then I start on the first room.

Distractions

Some days I want to throw all electronic devices out, other days I wish we still used pagers and internet want at our finger tips 24/7. It doesn’t matter what I’m doing I will find myself checking my phone and not even knowing why. Habits don’t require thought, just action. I know I’m not the only one, I see people do it all the time, at work, driving, on the street, we are all obsessed.

I wish I could say the kids have it worse, but really, the adults are just as bad, the big difference is most adults get their work done too. Ok well our paid work. Today I was suppose to clean, but I found myself researching numerous things for an upcoming doctor appt and such that could have waited. Like I said before, there’s always an excuse. I really do need to make a list tomorrow and reward myself as I accomplish each goal. The good news is I am prepared for the appointments and the upcoming meeting with the school, the downside is I have pulled things out as I clean and purge and they are sitting here waiting for me to pull out together and move them to their new room.

Yup, tomorrow is it , I can’t look at this stuff out of place much longer. I need that rush of accomplishment, maybe I will reward myself by shopping for paint for the living room. Crap, no, I’m already distracting myself.

Hindering a night owl

I’m a night owl. Yes I can get up and do stuff during the day, but I do my best work at night. I’m finding that this goes double when it comes to cleaning house.

When my son was little I would do a thorough cleaning on one of my days off, usually from 11-3 AM. He would always get up the next morning and his eyes would light up in surprise and admiration at what I accomplished while he slept. I really miss seeing this look on his face, but he’s old enough to be a part of the cleaning process. Unfortunately I get way more accomplished while he sleeps. Maybe I should keep him involved in the daily routine but do the thorough myself. I guess I should think about this more.

I dunno, as motivated as I am at night to clean I have a houseguest for the school year who sleeps on the couch. I guess I need to just suck it up and find it in me to get this done during the day. 😦  So many excuse, I can’t pick just one.
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