Who knew

When I pierced my lip I didn’t do it to impress or attract anyone, I did it because when I look at my face even with make up on it is incomplete to me. I have a mental picture of myself and what I see there is not what I see in the mirror, it’s not a true reflection of myself. No, I’m not ugly, but I wasn’t expressing myself the way I truly wanted to; makeup is not my preferred medium, I like body jewelry.

Who knew that with just one piece of jewelry strategically selected and placed my confidence would leap. Ok maybe that combined with losing a little weight in my face, but seriously I noticed that I’m not shying away from people as much. It’s weird because “it’s just jewelry.” It doesn’t make me tougher, harder, scarier…it doesn’t really change me, it simply makes me more comfortable. I know it adds to my beauty and can even seduce a guy from across the room just watching me work it with my mouth, but it’s just an accessory, an extension of me.

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Bound Beauty

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I can’t even begin explaining how this picture makes me feel…it’s me.

Bound Beauty

I am so full of love, passion, energy, and more all bound up. Few can see what’s hiding in me, those who can only catch glimpses; a flash of light in my eyes, a spark that escapes when touched…all of it bound, carefully hidden.
I shrug away from affection, hugs filled with love and comfort. Eye contact is strained, carefully shuttered. My body heavy, plain with the unattractive material binding me, hiding me. I draw and paint, pierce and decorate, a poor interpretation of the vibrant beauty hidden away. You can’t see me!
You can’t know…

-Hapless Confusion 2016

Major fading, hair dye update

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2 weeks later

About 2 weeks ago, March 13, I posted a pic and review of a new permanent ammonia free hair dye I tried, Revlon Cornsilk Burgundy color; here’s my update.

I am not impressed. As you can see the color drastically faded even with shampoo and conditioner for color treated hair. In 2 days I could see that the roots were fading, my blond starting to come through. Although I do enjoy the color it has faded to, I could have gotten the same results from a temporary dye.

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Right after dying

What I do like is of course the conditioner used with the original treatment, it left my hair softer than it’s felt in years. I also like how it’s still clinging to the grey. Unfortunately that’s just not enough for me which means I get to trim and dye my hair another color 🙂

Complications happen, be prepared Self Piercers

Murphy’s law is a bitch so before you do your own piercing, or allow a friend to, make sure that you’ve researched and prepared for the unexpected. Seriously, know what you’re getting into. Know your material options (titanium, surgical steel, etc.), recommended gages, length/diameter recommended for new piercings to allow for swelling, healing time, aftercare, potential dangers for each location (nerves, reflection…), angles and techniques, and even piercing needle options (lubricated?, with guide?). Even if you’re just shoving a safety pin through know how long to leave it in before trying to replace it with jewelry.

There’s a million videos and reads explain all of this, but none of them know exactly how your body will react to the piercing or jewelry. Although there are recommendations to allow for swelling those recommendations might not be enough for you or the style of jewelry you want isn’t the best for you while healing. So while others won’t tell you, I will…Buy a variety pack of sizes and styles and keep on hand for new piercings just in case.

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24 hours after changing, swelling down a lot

I’ve self pierced before, but this time chose to use piercing needles instead of safety pin or piercing stud (not recommended for cartilage as they have a lot of grooves). Money was a factor and I went with a $5 pack that came with different gage needless (14, 16, 18) that were not lubricated. The pack came with a few jewelry options for each gage, but they were basic surgical steel and I wanted something cuter and titanium as I wasn’t sure how my body would react, so I bought a labret for my lip and a hoop for my nose.

Thank God I went with the assorted pack of jewelry because my lip swelled so much the next day that the labret stud I initially selected was not long enough. It dug into the meat of my lip and was causing the meat to pucker around it. NOT good. I had no choice but to remove it and find a hoop big enough to fit around my fat lip. So here I am now with a silver 14 gage CBR in my lip (which I intended to be a 16G) that flops from side to side but feels SO much better. When the swelling comes down more I can switch to the smaller diameter horseshoe, and eventually back to my sexy labret. It’s not what I planned but thank God I had options.

Always prepare for the unexpected!!

Be you

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A-men!

Don’t be scared to be you…unless your a psychopathic murderer or worse, if so then just get help because you still are who you are so it’s ok to admit it so others can be who they are. Lol that’s so not where I intended to go with this.

Good day people. I’m up after only 5 hours of amazing sleep and am amazingly energized…I wonder if it’s still the adrenalin or thrill of the new piercing. I woke up with a swollen lip thanks to having to push the needle through twice, but it’s come down some and I don’t have plans but to clean and pack some.

Well I’m off to start my day, I mean afternoon. 🙂 What makes you different?

Accentuating me, my new piercing

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Yay, I finally got to add a new piercing! I know you can’t tell from the pic but it’s a black heart with multi colour jewel…too cute IMO.

This little booger gave me a hard time, but I persisted and finally it all came together. Ok so it was partially my fault for buying needles from a new source and not realizing that the stud wouldn’t fit into the end to guide it through… I ended up putting the needle through twice, leaving it in my lip for 20 mins the 2nd time to make sure the front hole stayed open this time. It worked and boom, I’m loving it. I was going to do a hoop in my lip on the opposite side, but because I struggled with the labret stud I decided I will order a new needle next month that will guide the hoop in. Hey, it will give me time to for the swelling to go down.

This will be my first permanent lip piercing,  when I was younger I could never let my lip heal. My mom was not a fan of facial piercings so as a teen every piercing was fresh and removed before I entered the house. Heck, at some point I just started using a safety pin them fastening it and rocking that over the weekend.

I’m tired of hiding my art, my vision, in not working right now so why not act while I have time to heal. Piercings are beautiful. I am beautiful.

More piercings to come.

Great week update

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I don’t know who to credit for the pic or meme but yummm, just what I want to wake up to everyday! Is there anything sexier than tats and piercings?

It’s been a few days since I’ve posted, but I have a good reason…WordPress pissed me off with that tag/newsfeed issue. Still no idea what caused it, but whatever.

So how’s my week been? It’s been great! The no car and having to bus thing is truly a blessing. My son comes home with tales from his adventures and riding together is giving us lots of bonding time and time to converse. He really is growing up. It’s also saving me a ton of money so I was able to pay half of our past due electric bill yesterday! Aside from all of that I’m really enjoying the walking and exercise I’m getting. We actually choose to walk and talk instead of going a bus a few blocks. Overall, I’m happy.

I’m very excited, my missing labret stud finally got here yesterday, way late but it’s here! Well now you know what I will be doing in a bit. I’m so excited, I’ve been waiting too long for this. Ok stay tuned for pics!!

Shout out to the creative and fun blogger, Sary Fairy

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I have to give a shout out to one of my favorite vloggers on YouTube, Sary Fairy. Her creativity in self expression and body art to accentuate beauty is admirable. Her vlog is fun and full of positive messages, even addressing, at one point, comments claiming “it’s easy for you to be confident, you’re beautiful” and accusing her of lacking confidence and using makeup to hide behind (watch here).

I don’t know her life story, nor have I watched all of her videos, but whatever her history or reasons behind anything she does do not and should not matter to anyone but her; who isn’t covering something up? Confidence is an emotion, a feeling, if body art brings out your confidence then embrace it! We should all be confident in ourselves in whatever way comfortable.

So here is a big Finally Fixing Me shout out to Sary Fairy: Your beautiful as you so go on and Express Yourself girl!

To view and subscribe to Sary Fairy’s vlog visit https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXcsSjtT-h_XwBzyJGSKtAg

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